Work has continued to go well. My boss and team are great, and I really cannot complain other than not feeling too challenged at the moment but once my boss returns from maternity leave I'm sure I will begin to look at the next challenge. Unfortunately my boredom has gotten me to thinking, which is a good thing, but sometimes gets me itching.
Perhaps it's the lack of change in my life. Other than moving from one roommate situation to another, and changing houses in the process, my life has been fairly stable - work, work, a little more work, and racing. That's about it. Whether it's just my constant need for change and a challenge, perhaps getting a little burnt out, or truly being ready for that next step, my little mind has been whirling and I've been thinking.
There have been two predominant thoughts. The first is that I really, REALLY want to start incorporating my education (aka art/3D stuff) into my work. Whether that is through a corporate job, something that is kind of close (say marketing) or through freelancing, I'm back to working on a portfolio and looking at some freelance gigs to build up some references. In an ideal world I'd be doing that full time with some low-stress part time work on the side (hell, I'd love to keep my current part time job and do that full time).
My biggest issue is that is not the "safest" thing to do, nor is it something I am set up for just yet. It's going to take some time to build clients, resources, etc. In the meantime, I have my day job, and I'd like to keep growing in that, too - the skills are very transferable, even into the 3D world.
The second predominant thought has to do with my living situation. I'm tired of renting a room from someone else! I want my own place - even if I have a 2/2 with a roommate, I want something that is my place that I can manage on my own if need be instead of always piggy backing on someone else's lease, and being the second (or third, or fourth) wheel in someone else's home. Problem is, at my current salary, even with as much as I work, that is NOT going to happen unless I have ZERO fun money - which I'm not quite willing to NEED two jobs in order to pay my basic bills. Been there, done that, dug out of that hole, not willing to fall back into it. This area is SO expensive, it has me looking elsewhere. There are areas relatively nearby (Sacramento for example) that are WAY cheaper and would keep me in the area, but I'd need either a position with my current company or get lucky enough to land a good paying job - or make the freelancing thing a real thing VERY quickly.
All in all, I'm at a point where I can finally think these thoughts, however, due to the fact that my divorce financial disaster is finally coming to a close. There is still one account outstanding, but my last contracted payment has been made which is freeing up a lot of money over the next few months. My credit score is ever so slowly rebounding, finally getting into the 600 range. There's still a long ways to go, but it's getting there and I'm very stoked about that. I'm also stoked to finally, realistically, be looking at paying off some of my debts once and for all!
There was a light at the end of the tunnel - and I'm finally able to start stepping into it. This has been a long, miserable road. I've learned some things along the way, I've learned a lot about myself, I've become a bit more selfish and cynical, but I've also become more professional, personable, and open with people at the same time.
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