Little Cows Being Pushed Off Cliffs (or my 2020 in a nutshell)

 While this blog ends up mostly being a very sporadically updated personal journal, I do enjoy having it available as a place to put out there what I'm thinking and dealing with.

Life has continued to go in a variety of directions for me the past two years, with a culmination of crazy in 2020 (that hasn't quite ended, either). I know this year has been life altering for many the world over with the COVID-19 pandemic and the fallouts from that, but as we are all painfully aware, our struggles, in the end, are our own.

To that end, as I begin my WFG journey, and start redefining my life from my day job to my side work, to chasing my passion, to revisiting long lost hobbies, I am taking a few minutes to go through an end of year self-evaluation discussed on a recent training call.

1. List seven events, people, or memories you are grateful for in 2020
1. Moving to Georgia from Texas
2. Meeting Michelle
3. Meeting Giussephe
4. Meeting Brittany and Joey
5. Being let go from a toxic job/company
6. Getting to ride Barber - more than once!
2. In what area of your life do you have the most momentum?
1. Mental toughness building. It's not there yet, but I feel like I have the capacity to build it, keep it going, and find that piece of me that has been missing. My confidence is soaring as I'm surrounded by the right people who uplift me as much as I do them. Things are new, and fresh, and a bit raw, but I'm at peace with the direction (as horribly uncomfortable as these massive changes are!!!)
3. How can you keep that momentum into 2021?
1. Keep going with the direction I'm headed. Listen to my gut, put in the work, and keep focused on my goals and my why's.
4. What is the most positive habit in your life at the moment?
1. Since I'm in the middle of the 75Hard challenge, there are a few things I'm doing that are very positive for me (the workouts, the eating, and the reading). They aren't fully habits yet, but I really want to maintain the workouts and reading - maybe not as strictly, but no more "months off"
5. What one habit do you wish you could change in 2021?
1. Giving in to that bitch voice - that same one that kept me in a toxic job, that same one that had me dating a narcissist, that same one that lost me my fight. When I've been in mentally tough places (black belt testing, police training, basic and tech school, now 75 Hard) my self confidence SOARS. I need to keep those challenges in my life, and they need to be rigorous. 
6. Who is sharpening you to be the person you want to become, and how can you spend more time with them in 2021?
1. Honestly, myself and my WFG uplines (maybe will find that in a new job, too). It's going to be a matter of reaching out, and annoying them if need be, to be sure I'm surrounded with those who are willing to push themselves and others.
7. What one thing, if it got better, would make the biggest difference in 2021?
1. Money is always good, but honestly, better money management (already have started on that) - I've done a little too much living just beyond my means, and I need to self correct that. More money obviously would make that easier, as long as I go into it with the proper mindset.

 

It's time for me to embrace some changes in my life and world....my passion remains strong, and I may even be lighting a flame under it once again...but finding that mental toughness muscle and rebuilding it is going to be key. I'm only 30 days into this challenge. It's not going to get easier, but I'm embracing it and already noticing the changes in myself and how I'm returning to being true to myself once more.