The 'new' job has proven to be a great step. Not only is it a company I can move up and around in, it's also connecting me to a whole other world of networking and industry professionals I otherwise would never have met. To make the deal even sweeter, my current boss and the team I landed on have been extremely supportive of my career growth and development, a trait that is exceptionally beneficial to my future.
As my position has grown, my boss and the company have lived up to their promises (something my last several jobs did NOT do), and I couldn't be happier from a career growth perspective. The only thing that would make this ideal would be combining what I have with my education and working in that industry with a similar team. It's still on my radar to head that direction, but in the meantime I'm developing into a far more valuable employee than I previously was.
Outside of work, life continues. The financial ruin that the divorce put me into is still haunting me, as I can't seem to get ahead. The difference from a year or two ago is that at least now, all my bills are paid, I have food on my shelves, and I'm actually racing motorcycles, which makes all the hard work totally worthwhile. Yes, I may be working 7 days a week unless I'm at the track, but I enjoy my jobs, and while I sometimes overspend a bit, at least I'm making everything happen when it needs to. Financial institutions still consider me a liability, but I can say with confidence now that I'm paying all my bills, on time, and not borrowing more than I already have (although I'm not dropping those balances much yet, either, at least I'm not adding to them).
The financial strain is the final remaining piece from the divorce that haunts me. I've even gotten my name back! Feels great to not have that little nagging everytime I'd see my signature or name in print. Finally, that is ME! It really is an awesome thing.
Life continues its journey, which is always an exciting ride. I'm reminded of Samwise in Lord of the Rings:
"By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great
stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and
danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end.
Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the
way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a
passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will
come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were
the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were
too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I
know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back,
only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to
something."
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Striking Out
Rediscovering my mojo was huge. Once I happened upon that and took some time to rediscover myself, I finally found myself much happier. More content with life and where it was going. And more determined to ensure that, despite everything else, I was going to live my life the way I wanted and do the things that were truly important to me.
There are still days and weeks that are tough, but that's to be expected in any life. We go through periods of feeling lonely, stressed, unloved, and unworthy. But finding that inner mojo makes coming out of those times a very do-able proposition. I have had the opportunity, desire, and drive to ensure that I continue to move forward in my life DESPITE the setbacks, roadblocks and other things that make it seem, at times, impossible.
Having a plan and forecast was also essential. Approximately one year ago I had finally decided to get my career on track. That required me to take a position that, while a significant pay increase, was also a significant cost increase and still paid WAY below area averages for that position. BUT, it would get my career headed in the direction I wanted. The company had poor reviews. I knew the pay was low. Despite that, I knew it would give me a resume that could move me into what I really wanted to do and keep me looking forward.
Don't get me wrong - I loved my work. I thoroughly enjoy what I do on a daily basis. There have been some perks such as telecommuting a couple days a week and a company phone. Since this job was a stepping stone, however, I've had to redirect myself into my future, and unfortunately there are other opportunities that in the long term will serve me better than my current position as the company has lived up to all of its poor reviews, much to my disappointment (since I really do enjoy my work).
Paying the bills and paying off debt, however, are taking priority, as is moving forward in an industry that has a little more to offer, so I began my job search. Much like the last time, I wasn't seeking "a job" but instead was looking for the "right job." A little research and I came across a few opportunities that matched and put my now updated resume out there. One of the companies replied, and a phone interview was arranged. That seemed to go well, and an in person interview was scheduled. Long story short, after another phone interview, a verbal offer now stands on the table.
While my negotiating skills still need some serious work, the offer the job presented is what I was HOPING for - so, rather than feeling the need to negotiate to get into what I wanted, it put me where I needed without negotiations. I'm guessing I could have bargained out a bit more, but to be honest, when something is hitting your target, what else do you ask for? More is nice, but I got a little more than the initial discussion, so I'm not complaining.
I gave the option to my present employer to come a little closer to this a couple months ago. I was told it wouldn't happen, maybe after another 6 months, and if I needed to look around, well, so be it. So be it it was, and here I am. Part of me wishes I didn't have to leave, but I know looking at the bigger picture this is the wiser decision. I'm excited about the prospects here and look forward to what it has to offer.
There are still days and weeks that are tough, but that's to be expected in any life. We go through periods of feeling lonely, stressed, unloved, and unworthy. But finding that inner mojo makes coming out of those times a very do-able proposition. I have had the opportunity, desire, and drive to ensure that I continue to move forward in my life DESPITE the setbacks, roadblocks and other things that make it seem, at times, impossible.
Having a plan and forecast was also essential. Approximately one year ago I had finally decided to get my career on track. That required me to take a position that, while a significant pay increase, was also a significant cost increase and still paid WAY below area averages for that position. BUT, it would get my career headed in the direction I wanted. The company had poor reviews. I knew the pay was low. Despite that, I knew it would give me a resume that could move me into what I really wanted to do and keep me looking forward.
Don't get me wrong - I loved my work. I thoroughly enjoy what I do on a daily basis. There have been some perks such as telecommuting a couple days a week and a company phone. Since this job was a stepping stone, however, I've had to redirect myself into my future, and unfortunately there are other opportunities that in the long term will serve me better than my current position as the company has lived up to all of its poor reviews, much to my disappointment (since I really do enjoy my work).
Paying the bills and paying off debt, however, are taking priority, as is moving forward in an industry that has a little more to offer, so I began my job search. Much like the last time, I wasn't seeking "a job" but instead was looking for the "right job." A little research and I came across a few opportunities that matched and put my now updated resume out there. One of the companies replied, and a phone interview was arranged. That seemed to go well, and an in person interview was scheduled. Long story short, after another phone interview, a verbal offer now stands on the table.
While my negotiating skills still need some serious work, the offer the job presented is what I was HOPING for - so, rather than feeling the need to negotiate to get into what I wanted, it put me where I needed without negotiations. I'm guessing I could have bargained out a bit more, but to be honest, when something is hitting your target, what else do you ask for? More is nice, but I got a little more than the initial discussion, so I'm not complaining.
I gave the option to my present employer to come a little closer to this a couple months ago. I was told it wouldn't happen, maybe after another 6 months, and if I needed to look around, well, so be it. So be it it was, and here I am. Part of me wishes I didn't have to leave, but I know looking at the bigger picture this is the wiser decision. I'm excited about the prospects here and look forward to what it has to offer.
Saturday, March 29, 2014
Gettin' my Mojo Back!
Time does do a lot for healing. It can take you from a curled up heap of sobbing tears to someone who's happy and making things happen. Time did that for me...I was feeling pretty content with where my life was going, I was learning to gain control of things like finances and the like, and I was keeping busy even if a bit lonely sometimes - and I was learning to be okay with that.
There was still a missing element to my healing. I was struggling to put my finger on it - it was easy to blame things like being broke, stressed about work or the lack of dating going on. Despite all of that, however, I knew there was still something missing, some part of me that hadn't fully healed, that I had lost somewhere along the way.
I had lost my mojo.
You know, that special spark that makes you, well, you. That element that gave me my edge. Drove me. Let me deal with thing in a different light. The part of me that was competitive. The part of me that wasn't subtly scared of everything.
Ya, that. I had lost it.
When and where I lost it, I'm not sure. It was somewhere between falling in love and then realizing that the person who was supposed to love me for me didn't. Regardless, I had FINALLY found what it was I needed. Now how to do that in my situation. Of course, being the nerdy type I am, and google being one's best friend, off to the wisdom of the internet I went.
This search actually proved to be very useful as I finally dug up some sites that discussed healing after a divorce over the long term. Let's face it, most "divorce healing" discussions deal with things you're going through that first year or so - the emotions, the let down, learning to do things you didn't have to do before, etc. Most advice out there doesn't pay attention to what happens after that but before you're back to "normal." Finally I found a few places that discussed, literally, getting your mojo back.
One of the huge elements of marriage is that you change yourself to work with the other person. This means that the "you" before them is set aside. These sites discussing needing to rediscover that person. Sure, you've grown and changed and may not want to be the exact person you were before the marriage, but that's where a lot of your mojo is hiding.
Mine, I believe, has been tucked away right there for some time. Probably slowly set aside, slowly sucked and twisted to meet the needs of someone who didn't offer much mojo in return. So yes, I had lost mine. The good news? It's still there, and the advice I came across has already helped me pin down it's location.
I'm sure this won't be an overnight process, but I'm positive this was the missing element!
There was still a missing element to my healing. I was struggling to put my finger on it - it was easy to blame things like being broke, stressed about work or the lack of dating going on. Despite all of that, however, I knew there was still something missing, some part of me that hadn't fully healed, that I had lost somewhere along the way.
I had lost my mojo.
You know, that special spark that makes you, well, you. That element that gave me my edge. Drove me. Let me deal with thing in a different light. The part of me that was competitive. The part of me that wasn't subtly scared of everything.
Ya, that. I had lost it.
When and where I lost it, I'm not sure. It was somewhere between falling in love and then realizing that the person who was supposed to love me for me didn't. Regardless, I had FINALLY found what it was I needed. Now how to do that in my situation. Of course, being the nerdy type I am, and google being one's best friend, off to the wisdom of the internet I went.
This search actually proved to be very useful as I finally dug up some sites that discussed healing after a divorce over the long term. Let's face it, most "divorce healing" discussions deal with things you're going through that first year or so - the emotions, the let down, learning to do things you didn't have to do before, etc. Most advice out there doesn't pay attention to what happens after that but before you're back to "normal." Finally I found a few places that discussed, literally, getting your mojo back.
One of the huge elements of marriage is that you change yourself to work with the other person. This means that the "you" before them is set aside. These sites discussing needing to rediscover that person. Sure, you've grown and changed and may not want to be the exact person you were before the marriage, but that's where a lot of your mojo is hiding.
Mine, I believe, has been tucked away right there for some time. Probably slowly set aside, slowly sucked and twisted to meet the needs of someone who didn't offer much mojo in return. So yes, I had lost mine. The good news? It's still there, and the advice I came across has already helped me pin down it's location.
I'm sure this won't be an overnight process, but I'm positive this was the missing element!
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
At what point....
I think I'm about ready to say "screw it" and take whatever I can find. Or at least that's how I feel sometimes. It's getting frustrating and tiring to keep on hunting and in the meantime feeling like I'm spinning my wheels where I'm at. Ugh!
There are things I want to do and pursue. I'm still pretty focused on my purpose and where I want to go. The main struggles present themselves in the day-to-day frustrations of showing up to a dead end job, still being broke and having no time to dedicate to my long term goals because I'm too busy trying to keep the day to day from completely falling apart (and not always being successful I might add).
On another note, I finally managed to scrape up enough for a gym membership. This means I can finally start working on getting my fat ass back into shape. I am officially in the worst shape of my entire life - it's horrible. Started working out this past week, and my body went into "workout shock." I gained 5 pounds in a matter of a few days. Yup, you read that right. More than a pound a day....granted, it's almost all water weight (retained in muscles and just general bloating), but it still sucks! I think things are finally starting to equalize after a solid week, but I'm still dealing with enough extra poundage to make me mildly embarrassed to wear clothes I wore 2 weeks ago BEFORE I started working out!
I know it will pay off in a couple weeks when this water weight all starts going away and I can finally see the results of getting my ass back into gear - but it's gonna be a tough few weeks getting this going. Thankfully a workout buddy several days a week helps, plus I'm just stoked to finally be getting back into shape - I really have not felt like myself since I really started to let myself go. My goals are to A) Generally get more fit B) Lose 20 pounds C) Be able to complete 50+ pushups in two minutes and be able to do 50 crunches/situps in the same time and D) Run 1 1/2 miles in 12 minutes (or less) again and E) Get in shape for moto racing (course this may be the first reason, it's just kinda arbitrary hard to define).
So, getting back into shape offers more energy, so HOPEFULLY that can translate directly into an increased ability to get shit done, sleep well (and therefore less) and overall be more productive - and keep my ambition up!
There are things I want to do and pursue. I'm still pretty focused on my purpose and where I want to go. The main struggles present themselves in the day-to-day frustrations of showing up to a dead end job, still being broke and having no time to dedicate to my long term goals because I'm too busy trying to keep the day to day from completely falling apart (and not always being successful I might add).
On another note, I finally managed to scrape up enough for a gym membership. This means I can finally start working on getting my fat ass back into shape. I am officially in the worst shape of my entire life - it's horrible. Started working out this past week, and my body went into "workout shock." I gained 5 pounds in a matter of a few days. Yup, you read that right. More than a pound a day....granted, it's almost all water weight (retained in muscles and just general bloating), but it still sucks! I think things are finally starting to equalize after a solid week, but I'm still dealing with enough extra poundage to make me mildly embarrassed to wear clothes I wore 2 weeks ago BEFORE I started working out!
I know it will pay off in a couple weeks when this water weight all starts going away and I can finally see the results of getting my ass back into gear - but it's gonna be a tough few weeks getting this going. Thankfully a workout buddy several days a week helps, plus I'm just stoked to finally be getting back into shape - I really have not felt like myself since I really started to let myself go. My goals are to A) Generally get more fit B) Lose 20 pounds C) Be able to complete 50+ pushups in two minutes and be able to do 50 crunches/situps in the same time and D) Run 1 1/2 miles in 12 minutes (or less) again and E) Get in shape for moto racing (course this may be the first reason, it's just kinda arbitrary hard to define).
So, getting back into shape offers more energy, so HOPEFULLY that can translate directly into an increased ability to get shit done, sleep well (and therefore less) and overall be more productive - and keep my ambition up!
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Chin Up, Girl!
I knew going into this it was going to be tough, but I honestly didn't realize just how much rejection I would have to deal with. After going through this a number of times I've come to realize I'm far from the only one - many people out there are going through interview after interview only to get turned down. I'm finding it rather ridiculous that jobs are looking for people with YEARS of experience, with skills that can only be honed after a serious amount of time in the trenches, and are only willing to pay barely above entry level - and to top it off, are actually finding people who fit the bill!
My question to all these employers, however, is that if your expectations are so high, why are these super-qualified people even willing to accept these positions? Are they REALLY able (and willing) to do the job, or is there a reason why someone who's been in the field for years is still working an entry level post? From what I see being brought into where I work, there are two types of employees - those who took the job in hopes of moving on, and when that isn't happening, they leave, OR the people are so poorly qualified it's embarrassing, no matter what their resume may say. There's one other category, and that's the retiree/I have a sugar daddy types who are just working for a discount or something to occupy their time. Anyone who actually meets the expectations for these "entry level" positions is trying to find a different job, because they are very well aware that their skills and abilities are way above their pay grade, and that they are working way above their pay grade - and why do the job of the people above you if you're not getting paid for it and there's no hope of promotion?
These are my daily frustrations - for the most part I'm keeping my chin up and staying the course, but interviews are not what they used to be - well, that or because I'm looking for a real job instead of "just a job" it's that much harder. Knowing that I'm working to get my career going where I want it to go is helping me stay motivated, but there are days I just get tired of dealing with it all...and never having time off, working my tail off, trying to stay motivated with my current jobs - sometimes I just want to scream at the world "can I ever catch a break?!?"
Gone are the days where being a hard worker, intelligent and reliable were enough to propel you forward. Now everyone needs to be a personal salesman, toot your own horn, and sound like you're an expert in your chosen field even if you're looking for an entry level position. Ugh. I know that's how it is, and I know that's what I'm going to have to do, but it just rubs me wrong when I see people doing something that I know I could do better than they can, but I get overlooked because I'm too "real."
It would be nice to be able to say "screw it, I'm going into business for myself!" right now, but that takes money and time, neither of which do I have. I could be working more towards my long term goals if I could afford to only work one job - but until I get a new job, that's simply not a possibility! SO FRUSTRATING!!! I guess that's what I get for ensuring someone else's success before my own :/ It's a dog-eat-dog world out there, and I guess I'll just have to turn into that snarky bitch if I ever want to get anywhere.
I know I should be happier that I at least have jobs (even if they pay poorly) and that I am able to work, have no major health issues, have a roof over my head and have food in the cupboard, and most of the time I am happy. Most of the time I'm happy with my life and where I'm going with it - but I'm not willing to settle for second best or the backseat anymore, and there are days it gets tiring constantly trying to claw my way out of this position I've put myself into. I know I'll get there eventually though, just need to tough it out and keep on improving my techniques until I finally find the next position to get my career on track!
My question to all these employers, however, is that if your expectations are so high, why are these super-qualified people even willing to accept these positions? Are they REALLY able (and willing) to do the job, or is there a reason why someone who's been in the field for years is still working an entry level post? From what I see being brought into where I work, there are two types of employees - those who took the job in hopes of moving on, and when that isn't happening, they leave, OR the people are so poorly qualified it's embarrassing, no matter what their resume may say. There's one other category, and that's the retiree/I have a sugar daddy types who are just working for a discount or something to occupy their time. Anyone who actually meets the expectations for these "entry level" positions is trying to find a different job, because they are very well aware that their skills and abilities are way above their pay grade, and that they are working way above their pay grade - and why do the job of the people above you if you're not getting paid for it and there's no hope of promotion?
These are my daily frustrations - for the most part I'm keeping my chin up and staying the course, but interviews are not what they used to be - well, that or because I'm looking for a real job instead of "just a job" it's that much harder. Knowing that I'm working to get my career going where I want it to go is helping me stay motivated, but there are days I just get tired of dealing with it all...and never having time off, working my tail off, trying to stay motivated with my current jobs - sometimes I just want to scream at the world "can I ever catch a break?!?"
Gone are the days where being a hard worker, intelligent and reliable were enough to propel you forward. Now everyone needs to be a personal salesman, toot your own horn, and sound like you're an expert in your chosen field even if you're looking for an entry level position. Ugh. I know that's how it is, and I know that's what I'm going to have to do, but it just rubs me wrong when I see people doing something that I know I could do better than they can, but I get overlooked because I'm too "real."
It would be nice to be able to say "screw it, I'm going into business for myself!" right now, but that takes money and time, neither of which do I have. I could be working more towards my long term goals if I could afford to only work one job - but until I get a new job, that's simply not a possibility! SO FRUSTRATING!!! I guess that's what I get for ensuring someone else's success before my own :/ It's a dog-eat-dog world out there, and I guess I'll just have to turn into that snarky bitch if I ever want to get anywhere.
I know I should be happier that I at least have jobs (even if they pay poorly) and that I am able to work, have no major health issues, have a roof over my head and have food in the cupboard, and most of the time I am happy. Most of the time I'm happy with my life and where I'm going with it - but I'm not willing to settle for second best or the backseat anymore, and there are days it gets tiring constantly trying to claw my way out of this position I've put myself into. I know I'll get there eventually though, just need to tough it out and keep on improving my techniques until I finally find the next position to get my career on track!
Friday, July 12, 2013
Keeping your head up and determination going
"You miss 100% of the shots you never take."
I have this written on my white board in my room where I see it every single day. Sometimes it's a little tough to try to keep your head up and your eyes on the goal. Far too often it's too easy to say "why bother - nothing has happened with the last 30 job applications/3 interviews/whatever that I've completed, why should this one be any different?" Yet that simple phrase up there points out the obvious - yes, 100, 1,000, or more may be total misses, but you will never know if 1,001 is the one that is perfect if you don't try for it.
Yes, there may be many failures and things that don't come through - but "definiteness of purpose is the key to success." If what I'm pursuing is what I want - and it is - then eventually I WILL find that one. It will work out, that match will be made and I will move forward. And I'll be far happier doing so because I know I'll be pursuing what I want to do, it's a marketable career, and I can take all that energy, combine it with experience and work ethic, and become an amazing employee and develop a great career that I can be proud of.
This little pep talk is a pretty frequent thing I've been having to do lately - there are some days where it's just TOUGH. Although I've made changes to ease my financial situation with where I'm at, this is the first full month that these changes are in place,and I'm still playing catch up. Working too much, no fun time, no money to enjoy fun time, just being worn out and then adding in the many downs of changing careers in a tough economy and there are days it would be easier to be depressed.
But I refuse to give in to that. In my head, self pep talks seem "silly" but I am finding that a reminder of WHY I'm doing what I'm doing, what the long term benefits will be, and a reminder that the best things in life don't come easy makes it a lot easier to get up in the morning and get motivated. I still have days where I'm just plain old tired and don't want to put my energy into work - but I'm getting better about it, and putting some energy back into the jobs I currently have, tired or not. If nothing else, I need to prove to myself that I am worthy of the position(s) I want, and getting lazy where I'm at doesn't do that. Pretty sure my coworkers/boss have noticed the positive difference the past couple weeks as well.
On another note I had an interview on Monday that seemed to go fairly well - and it's a position I would LOVE to have. It's one of those positions where I would not only have a great career move/opportunity, it would be an amazing place to grow, and it's an organization and mission that I can fully support and see the direct benefit of my work. I know they interviewed a number of very good people - but this is one really want, one where I really feel like the benefits would be very mutual.
But, just in case, I'm continuing to take shots - cause you just never know which one will finally hit the mark :)
I have this written on my white board in my room where I see it every single day. Sometimes it's a little tough to try to keep your head up and your eyes on the goal. Far too often it's too easy to say "why bother - nothing has happened with the last 30 job applications/3 interviews/whatever that I've completed, why should this one be any different?" Yet that simple phrase up there points out the obvious - yes, 100, 1,000, or more may be total misses, but you will never know if 1,001 is the one that is perfect if you don't try for it.
Yes, there may be many failures and things that don't come through - but "definiteness of purpose is the key to success." If what I'm pursuing is what I want - and it is - then eventually I WILL find that one. It will work out, that match will be made and I will move forward. And I'll be far happier doing so because I know I'll be pursuing what I want to do, it's a marketable career, and I can take all that energy, combine it with experience and work ethic, and become an amazing employee and develop a great career that I can be proud of.
This little pep talk is a pretty frequent thing I've been having to do lately - there are some days where it's just TOUGH. Although I've made changes to ease my financial situation with where I'm at, this is the first full month that these changes are in place,and I'm still playing catch up. Working too much, no fun time, no money to enjoy fun time, just being worn out and then adding in the many downs of changing careers in a tough economy and there are days it would be easier to be depressed.
But I refuse to give in to that. In my head, self pep talks seem "silly" but I am finding that a reminder of WHY I'm doing what I'm doing, what the long term benefits will be, and a reminder that the best things in life don't come easy makes it a lot easier to get up in the morning and get motivated. I still have days where I'm just plain old tired and don't want to put my energy into work - but I'm getting better about it, and putting some energy back into the jobs I currently have, tired or not. If nothing else, I need to prove to myself that I am worthy of the position(s) I want, and getting lazy where I'm at doesn't do that. Pretty sure my coworkers/boss have noticed the positive difference the past couple weeks as well.
On another note I had an interview on Monday that seemed to go fairly well - and it's a position I would LOVE to have. It's one of those positions where I would not only have a great career move/opportunity, it would be an amazing place to grow, and it's an organization and mission that I can fully support and see the direct benefit of my work. I know they interviewed a number of very good people - but this is one really want, one where I really feel like the benefits would be very mutual.
But, just in case, I'm continuing to take shots - cause you just never know which one will finally hit the mark :)
Friday, June 28, 2013
Opportunity Knocks
As my job hunt continues, I've started to run into some things I need to figure out. Number one, this career change is not going to happen on the schedule I had in mind. This means I'm stuck working my tail off at two jobs (one F/T and one P/T) just to make ends meet since neither pays enough to come close to living off of. Secondly, my time frame for "easing into" getting my own business going may very well be sped up and things may be happening far sooner than I had anticipated.
This has forced me to make some decisions: do I pass up on an amazing opportunity to save my sanity? Or do I take the leap, say the hell with having a life right now (well, or at least until I manage to find a decent job) and get this ball rolling while the chance is here? When you're already working more than you would like with very little pay off for you, it's a tough thing to add something else to the plate - but the things being added could have HUGE pay offs in the long run...
Faced with these choices, I mulled it over - and over - and over. I used to believe that there were more opportunities for things to happen, and you were okay to bide your time. I've learned the hard way that is no longer the case. In this economy, in this day and age with so much international exchange of labor, tasks, etc, you can't pass up opportunities when they are presented - at least not if you ever want to obtain your goals. This may be old news to successful people everywhere - but that's just not how I was raised or taught to think. It's a bit of a paradigm shift for me.
My choice ended up being clear, albeit with the knowledge that the very small bit of personal time I was currently getting would be eliminated, and I'll have to learn to operate on not enough sleep - and do it well. It makes me tired just thinking about it! But, it's what I want, and I'll make it happen. It's an absolutely amazing opportunity to jump in with both feet, and take my 10 year goal and turn it into only a couple years. Hopefully it works out, as long as I can keep my focus I'll be okay (even if a little tired), and if it does work out, I'll be farther along in a much shorter period of time than I could have anticipated.
In the meantime, I've got to get some stuff together, paperwork and start doing my homework. And still apply for a "normal" job that will give me the freedom to dedicate some time to this new venture. And still work my full time job. And still work my part time job. And still spend time with my animals. And try to find time to take care of myself!!! OMG, this is going to be an insane ride - really wishing I was 10 years younger right now!
This has forced me to make some decisions: do I pass up on an amazing opportunity to save my sanity? Or do I take the leap, say the hell with having a life right now (well, or at least until I manage to find a decent job) and get this ball rolling while the chance is here? When you're already working more than you would like with very little pay off for you, it's a tough thing to add something else to the plate - but the things being added could have HUGE pay offs in the long run...
Faced with these choices, I mulled it over - and over - and over. I used to believe that there were more opportunities for things to happen, and you were okay to bide your time. I've learned the hard way that is no longer the case. In this economy, in this day and age with so much international exchange of labor, tasks, etc, you can't pass up opportunities when they are presented - at least not if you ever want to obtain your goals. This may be old news to successful people everywhere - but that's just not how I was raised or taught to think. It's a bit of a paradigm shift for me.
My choice ended up being clear, albeit with the knowledge that the very small bit of personal time I was currently getting would be eliminated, and I'll have to learn to operate on not enough sleep - and do it well. It makes me tired just thinking about it! But, it's what I want, and I'll make it happen. It's an absolutely amazing opportunity to jump in with both feet, and take my 10 year goal and turn it into only a couple years. Hopefully it works out, as long as I can keep my focus I'll be okay (even if a little tired), and if it does work out, I'll be farther along in a much shorter period of time than I could have anticipated.
In the meantime, I've got to get some stuff together, paperwork and start doing my homework. And still apply for a "normal" job that will give me the freedom to dedicate some time to this new venture. And still work my full time job. And still work my part time job. And still spend time with my animals. And try to find time to take care of myself!!! OMG, this is going to be an insane ride - really wishing I was 10 years younger right now!
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